Like ThisShe had a mind like a step-down department store.
Shelves all cross-stacked and leaning
against one another as though
gravity and time could be overcome through
close-knit camaraderie.
She lived on too little sleep and too much emotion,
and sometimes too little emotion,
and a certain amount of pretend.
There was a fluidity to her thought and motion,
the turn of a head,
how her hands reached for things,
the outrage of her hips,
memories of being younger, being before.
The sense of leftover music someplace nearby.
There was a spacious thoughtfulness about her
that children found comfortable,
and grown men alluring,
and yet vaguely dangerous,
as if she knew what she wanted after all.
She built sisterhood bridges of conversation
and occasionally crossed over them,
even knowing there was no going back.
She had long golden hair that was darkening
down into the burnt ocher of lingering
twilight streets, the warmth of earth
and cherrywood darkened by
sunshowers, and eyes that reminded
you of tides and salt-mists and
storms far out at sea.
But when she smiled, it was the inland
smile of those miniature wild roses
that push their stubborn way up through
the lambkill and black alder along
the edge of muskrat swails.
She could laugh honestly, with a kind of
deft femininity, an openness and a
strength of purpose that said she
understood just how bad it could get,
and how good it could get,
and that she was happy to be a woman,
even in a time and place
like this.
Wendell Dryden